Back at the bat cave I realize that what people most often are blind to is the amount of “emotional battery” that we emotional entrepeneurs actually use up and generate with in a single creative session. Then the callatarel damage and long term back swing of such a starburst in energy sets me back a few dozen hours, a depression and a grande green tea latte at starbucks.

My biggest chalenge is balancing the ultimate Freedom(wich can look like insanity if I stay in the infinite for too long, scary shit to never feel gravity, up, down, and your own wieght beneath you.) with a structured and ego satisfaction of taking care of the hard parts of my life. When working creatively I experience a pure freedom almost out of body experience that not many people can relate to fully, when I return to my body and my ambitions, hopes fears, sexuality, and overall cataclysmic human nature I realize I have been away from it for some time.
If I have not lost you yet, take another look at this from a more practical side. If I am light bulb, and use a certain amount of voltage to illuminate the world around me, how many times could I max out my lumins before I needed to replace the actual hardware that acts as a conductor for it?
Bigger Expression of Creative flow, bigger upkeep and a necessity for stronger, longer, more durable components…..
this is what makes my world go round. In circles and twisty loops, like a bowl of sphagetti. yum.